Posted 6:53 PM by Tiggs
It's been a while...

Living this side of Heaven

It's been a while hasn't it? I'm bad enough with the main site, but really neglect this part.

Are we meant to be able to cope?

I've always been discontent with the world, the system, and reality in general. My feelings along those lines predate my Depression by several years, and sometimes I catch myself wondering if I'll ever really like this world I'm stuck living in.

But were we ever meant to?

We don't live in Heaven, we live in a Fallen World. The next world is perfection, this one is not. But that just makes it seem like this world will always be tough, and never make sense. And I have to admit to really not liking that.

I guess what really pisses me off is the teaching that nothing can be accomplished under our own power, and it's only through God that we can do anything worthwhile. I'm sure there's more to it than that, human understanding being limited and all, but that's how it always comes over. But when you stack that with individuality it all seems somewhat off.

I'm a techie. I also know I have limits. What I love is when I manage to better myself and push back my limits. To be able to solve something, especially on my own. I love it when I can look back and see that things which I used to need help with I can now do myself. I like the feeling of accomplishment, and of having moved forward. Because of this, however, I have issues with anything that suggests that striving to accomplish things on my own is a bad thing.

And if this world is one where people can't be content, why the hell are we put here?